Sabrina.Mahmood

Stop!

2012-02-06T12:49:00.003+11:00

In this present time, everything is always so rushy-rushy. Everyone is rushing for everything; to get to work, to get work done, to get somewhere in life, etc. Well, rushing in everything is fine I guess, except when it comes to life. It was brought to my attention recently that rushing in life does not equal to living. Yeah, i know that that one is sort of obvious, but for most of us we never really thought about it. Because well you see, we are kinda rushing for everything. No time wei. We can't wait for holiday, we can't wait for this year to end, we can't wait until we get married, we can't wait for the future things we had in plan, etc. Point is, there's always something we can't wait for, and we are always rushing to get there. And when we get there, we're rushing for the next thing.

So i thought age has perhaps brought me some patience, i shall not rush through life so much anymore. Now, i shall sit back, relax and enjoy things as they pass me by. Savor the moment, spend time doing nothing sometimes, and taste the flavors that life has to offer.

Green.

2011-11-28T01:23:00.002+11:00

Its common for people to think that other people have it better than them. They always think that the grass is greener on the other side. It is not until they went to the other side of the fence they notice that; hey, the pasture is the same color after all. If you ask me I would say that no pastures are better than the other. Well perhaps there are some pastures better than the other. But hey, you never know what are happening under the grounds of those pastures or the insides of its grass, etc. On the outside all pastures have its own beauty. What one pasture lack in green-ess it might make up in it is healthy grass, etc. So the point is, the grass is not greener on the other side, its just an illusion from the other side of the fence.

Perfume.

2011-10-09T08:31:00.001+11:00

The thing about liking someone is that, its like liking a perfume. What smell nice to you might not smell nice to others or vice versa. The point of this analogy is that some people will like you and some won't. Therefore you should not feel offended or hurt if someone does not like you, as different people are attracted to different kind of perfumes. You should also take note that there is no need for you to copy the smell of other perfumes, as all type of perfume has its own uniqueness; and most importantly every kind of perfume will have its lover.

Variables.

2011-10-03T07:36:00.005+11:00

All of us worry and try to plan for things. Well except for when it comes to assignments. And exams. For me at least. Haha. But when it comes to relationships, jobs, and other things in Life, we do worry and try to plan for the best. But what we fail to realize is that we are only in control of so much variables ie. time, place, other factors. Point is, there is only so much we can do. Somewhere we just have to realize that we have tried our best and its time to make peace with whatever that is happening or simply hope for the best. Because like i said we are only in control of so much variables, and the rest is maktub.

August happenings.

2011-08-10T05:57:00.007+10:00

I've been meaning to update my blog for a while now. But i usually end up didnt; due to other things like TV series and work and the Internet distracting me. Well these are the few things running in my mind right now.

i) i've been busy. not a new news. I bought myself a Macbook Pro a month ago, but still currently updating my blog through my old Dell. Yes, still did not manage to find the time to migrate to my Mac.

ii) True Blood season 4 is on again! And its sizzlinggg. Eric and Sookie is finally an item. And Bill looks hot in this season. I compared him to the first season, i suspect he had something done to his face. He looks much better in Season 4, and his face has less wrinkles. And it also might be the haircut.

iii) Vampire Diaries is coming back middle of September, and Dexter early October. It seems that i would be entertained until the end of the year :)!

iv) i have not been practicing my guitar. I have 8 classes to attend this month and also meeting the new teacher.

v) I'm trying to save up money, and balancing my bank accounts.

vi) i miss my friends very much. i miss talking and spending time with them. hence i always rains them with phone calls. hehe. i wish we have more time to spend together.

vii) i'm thinking of organizing my blog. what i want with it. who i want to share it with.

viii) I'm going to turn 24 end of this year. I've been thinking, i like myself right now. At least i think i do. I am more calm, confident and strong compared to my younger self. i am proud of the growing up i've done. And i look forward to further improve myself as a person. I guess age do that to you. And i welcome age. I wonder what i would like at 40.

Sweetest Poem.

2011-04-23T16:05:00.007+10:00

I fear that I will always be,
A lonely number like root three.

The three is all that's good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight,
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine.

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic.

I know I'll never see the sun, as 1.7321,
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality.

When hark! What is this I see?
Another square root of a three.

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply,
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer.

We break free from our mortal bonds,
With the wave of magic wands.

Our square root signs become unglued,
Your love for me has been renewed.

Significant.

2011-03-03T03:48:00.004+11:00

I once heard someone said that; things you worry about now would become insignificant in 3 years time. Though i have my doubts then, it seems that what is being said is true.

Soulmates.

2011-02-20T06:03:00.008+11:00

An excerpt from "How I Met Your Mother":

Ted: I just remembered why i didn't call you.
Girl: Why?
Ted: *sigh* I can't believe i'm gonna screw this up again. But umm.. i like finding typos in menus.
Girl: What?
Ted: And i know my selfish pun is stupid, but the truth is, I'm not suddenly gonna stop making stupid jokes.
Girl: Now that you mentioned it, i'm never gonna stop talking about my cats. They are funny and adorable, and totally worth having to take six panadol a day.
Ted: *smiles and laugh* I mean shouldn't we hold out for the person who doesn't just tolerate our little quirks but actually kinda likes them?

I believe a Soulmate is someone you could be yourself with, and in spite all your quirks and imperfections you still would be loved unconditionally.

Smart.

2011-01-21T03:14:00.002+11:00

No excuse anymore i guess.

Signpost.

2011-01-17T02:52:00.003+11:00

"I rather be having a good time in Future tense rather than in Past tense."

Live in the moment people. Live life looking through the windshield mirror not the rear view mirror.

Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert ; My Review.

2010-12-27T02:52:00.006+11:00

If you live in 2010, you would know about the book "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert. I honestly did not know about the book, until i saw the trailer for the movie. Only after the trailer did i noticed the book slowly becoming more popular in the major shelf of the major bookstore in Malaysia (read: MPH, Borders, Kinokuniya).

After watching the trailer I was super excited about watching the Movie as it looks quite inspirational. However after watching the movie i found that it do not live up to my expectations (read: just alright) and some parts were quite boring. In fact i found that the main character is (Elizabeth Gilbert) selfish.

Still having a bit of hope i went to MPH to read through the book. I then found out that the book is actually a memoir of the author (Elizabeth Gilbert). To support her travels (to Italy, India and Indonesia), she was paid by a book dealer in advances whereby she promised a book at the end of her travels (doesn't that sound to well-planned?).

Now, let the real review begin:

I find this the main character/ book selfish. She left her husband who did nothing wrong just because she is unsatisfied. Now i would understand and even like the book if the situation were different, e.g:

i) Elizabeth is a gf who left her bf in search for herself. Still understandable as she is not breaking the sacred vow of marriage. And Elizabeth try to make up to her bf, which still doesn't make what she did alright.

ii) Both Elizabeth and her husband decide to mutually separate as they have grown to be a different person than they initially were.

iii) Elizabeth were dump by here bf, and to fix her broken heart she went traveling to find herself.

However these 3 situations are not the case. Elizabeth for no reason feel unsatisfied with her marriage, decided to leave her husband and could not understand why her husband was angry at her. Down right selfish. I have not finished yet, she then take this advance paid trip around the world, finding herself. Now in a real life, not everyone have the means to travel around the world to "find themselves". They have to work out the mess and make ends meet. I also find the author self absorbed and whiny.

To actually have an idea on what other people thoughts are on this book, i read dozens of reviews online. Most of the readers gave the book 2 out of 5. 1 being the worst, 5 being the best.

Here are some of their opinions:

"I too have for four years tried to recover from a broken 27 year marriage with two kids that ended in divorce. I wish I could afford such luxury as she did to recover instead of the tearful journey most of us have to live called the reality of life . . . Congrats on making a buck off of walking out of a marriage. I hope your x gets some of the proceeds. Too bad you haven't had to really experience life. The reality of living on the edge of poverty following a divorce."

"I would love to see how her story would have turned out minus the huge bank account that allowed her to take the vacation of her life. There is no depth of soul here...she had nothing to overcome and only herself to think about and all the money in the world to do it. I give this story a minus 0"

"The only thing that I could not get past is her leaving the marriage, and that she did not understand why her husband who thought she would never leave him could not forgive her!!"

"I was excited to buy this book but wanted to put it away several times. There were a few moments of great writing but most of the book is extremely dry and boring. I did not finish the book and I would not buy anything else from this author based on this sampling."

In a nutshell, i do find this book/ storyline uninspiring. It is overrated where the main character (Elizabeth) is a selfish, whiny and self absorbed. And yes, the storyline does not portrays the reality of real life; and it seems that the Elizabeth left the messy bits out and weave this 'everything fell perfectly into place' theme. And i strongly reject the notions in this book in support with all the reasons and opinions i stated above.

ps: Thank god i spent the money on "Tuesday with Morrie" by Mitch Albom instead.

Hello 2011.

2010-12-24T10:40:00.003+11:00

2011 marks not only the end of a year, but also the end of a decade. For me personally, its the end of an era. 2010 marks the end of my undergraduate years, and in 2011 i will be a full fledged adult. Now, in the midst of self reflection, i would like to appoint a name to each year I've been through:

2000 - 2004: The High School Years
2005: The Year of the Junction
2006: The Year of Transition
2007: The Year of Bliss in Ignorance
2008: The Year of Cold Hard Truths
2009: The Year of Accomplishments
2010: The Year of the Phoenix

If i might say so myself, it has indeed been an eventful decade. From starting High School in 2000 to finishing my degree in 2010. Now this is where i would like to say my thanks to all the people I've met during this decade, especially the people I've met after the half mark of the decade.

To each and everyone of you, thank you for our encounters. It might be brief, or it might be long. However our encounters have foster me to become the person i am today.

Now for the few foes I've met/made along my journey, my sincerest thanks, as without my encounters with yous, I would not be who I am today.

And for the friends, thank you for the happiness that you have brought into my life, for being there with me throughout my journey. Even though we would go our separate ways next year, my hope is that we will hold on to our friendship until we are call to meet our maker.

Lets pray that the next decade would be one fill with accomplishments, contentedness and most importantly happiness. Amin.

Fire and Ice.

2010-10-19T16:45:00.003+11:00

I am not a huge fan of poetry, but if you ask me who is my favorite poet my reply would be Robert Frost. I simply love Robert Frost's poems as I can see something raw and truth weave into it. So this is one of my favorite Robert Frost's poem. Can't tell you why, but enjoy.

Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

TV Series.

2010-06-13T22:33:00.005+10:00

Looking back a couple of years till now, if there if one thing that I can say with confidence that I'm good at is- watching TV series. Scratch that. Watching TV series WHILE eating. Ohhh Yesss. Most of the time, doing just that is the highlight of my day.

You see, once high school is over i find that i just laze through my studies. Wait. What "studies"? I never do "studies". Not in college anyways (don't tell the parents that). I still remember the 1st semester of my Foundation years. My "study" table is strewn with various TV series Cd's (mind u at that time pendrive is still expensive, and cd's are still widely use, though it was the end of era for the floppy disk or disket). Its was strewn with CD for the WHOLE semester. That and dust. Seriously.

Now about 4/5 years have past. And i have a long list of TV series that I have watched- that if I could earn a degree in that, i would definitely score a 1st class. With Honors. However sadly the same things might not apply when my degree results came in next year. But then again i watch more TV series seasons than the subjects i took per semester. If only it could contribute to my credit hour. Or credit points.

Now after long years of lack of sleep, huge efforts, hard work and determination it takes to ignore all the piling assignments and continue watching- I think it might not go to waste after all. As my current situation is partially doing-nothing-at-home-for-another-2-weeks-holiday, I think I might have found another activity to further waste my life away. The big kebabom: I think i might just do a commentary on all the TV series I have watch. Or perhaps just some. Anyhow stay tune, we won't be long :).

Forgive & Forget.

2010-05-07T12:17:00.005+10:00

Most of us have heard the phrases:

i) forgive and forget
ii) forgive but not forget

The phrases sounds almost the same, but the meaning couldn't be more contradictory. Now, i do agree with phrase No 1, as its sounds just about.. right. Its the right thing to do you see. Almost everyone should or would agree. But then, do everyone apply this phrase onto their daily life? I think maybe, or not.

You see, the problem i see with phrase No 2 is that it is conflicting. How can you forgive if you don't forget? Forgiving means accepting and then letting go. But if you forgive but not forget does that mean you really forgive? Or is it half forgiving? I believe that if you truly forgive, then you will forget/ bury the hatchet. You won't keep it as a winning chip to be use against that person later or hope that karma will bite that person back in the ass.

You see, forgiving is not really as easy as it seems. To forgive means that things would go on as it have without anything being or getting affected. Or things will go on with improvements if you have learn from the mistakes made. That is why forgiveness is something that needs to be worked on, not something that happens overnight.

Now some might not agree with me. Then i guess the question we need to ask ourselves is; is it really forgiveness if we ain't forgetting?

Social conventions.

2010-02-28T18:21:00.003+11:00

In easy words i'll say social conventions is what we called the norms. But i see it more as standards or criteria taking the form of a custom. You might ask what are these criteria and standards? Here are some of the examples:

You have to have an engagement in the wedding process, appropriate amount of gifts, wedding cards that is up to standards, etc.
Wearing an appropriate amount of gold to a wedding (hands, ears, more on hands, necks, and even you teeth, etc.)

Now lets say you don't have certain customs being incorporated in your wedding, people will say that you have a bun in the oven, etc.
Or if you don't wear a few kilograms worth of gold on you to a wedding or other social function people will say ill stuff about you as well.

Some social conventions are good. Probably most are. But when it come to ridiculous customs or standards as such mentioned above, i say it should be diminished. Why care what other people think about you? Wear and do what you feel comfortable with as long as it does not contradict againts you value. I'll say we should bin some of our social conventions.

Brain damage.

2010-02-20T02:54:00.003+11:00

Owh yes, i suspect myself suffering from the condition mentioned in the above title. I'm in my holidays; and out of my to-be-done list, i probably have done none. Yes. Procrastinating seems to be my forte.

Lately i find myself having a lack of spark to do anything at all. I try to persuade myself to read the books i've bought, or do some writings. Nope, no reading nor writing. But i can still do sleeping oh-so-perfectly. Did i mention that i no longer know what i want or what interest me anymore. But maybe not really, as currently i am majorly drooling over Damon Salvatore. Oh hails the life of tv series. Which literally means my life.

Ah, since i'm bored, and probably you're are too since you're reading this, let me update you on my currents:

Current songs: songs Hitz fm played on my driving to KL on weekdays morning. Also Fireflies by Owl city, Enjoy the Silence by Anberlin etc.

Current tv series: Vampire diaries

Current interest: Damon Salvatore

Current books: The lost symbol by Dan Brown, The Alchemist by Paolo Coelho, The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

Current fixation: whether i should curl my hair or not.

Current pain: My left foot due to tense muscle, hence the slight limping (might be joining Dr House with the cane soon), my upper back due to the internet, my brain.

I'm also considering if i should stop blogging and shut down my blog. Writer's block and all. Why the blog then?

Pandora's box.

2009-11-17T19:49:00.020+11:00

As a child and all the way up to my early teen years I've always been almost fanatically interested on everything Roman, Greek, and Egyptian; specifically on its early civilization and culture. So once i read a story on Pandora's box which is a pretty popular Greek mythology.

To cut the blogging short, the story basically starts off with a young women living in a world where there is no pain and suffering. It is a world as before we knew it. Its utopia, where everybody is happy including this young women whose name is Pandora. So one day, one of these Greek god ( I've forgotten which one), gave a box to Pandora. But he told Pandora not to open the box. Yes, so you guess what Pandora did- she opened the box out of curiosity. Once she opened the box a gush of black stuff went out of the box, it was horrifying, so Pandora quickly tried to close the box back. But it was too late, as all the black stuff already went out. The black stuff were actually pain, suffering, sadness and all the things bad in the world. So from there on there is no more utopia, it has become the world as we know it. Pandora regretted what she did, but there were no use. So thinking that it couldn't be more worse than it already is, she decided to open the box one more time. And when she opened the box came out a little white stuff floating away, and its called Hope. There it was, the last of the box's contains- Hope.

Even though it is just a myth, I believe the story is trying to tell us that with all the pain, sadness and suffering, there is Hope at the end. There's always Hope there. And i believe that is part of the reason why humankind keeps on going against it all.

Women get expensive with age.

2009-11-14T15:26:00.012+11:00

The general population of women gets more expensive with age (if not most population). Really. If you don't believe me, lets follow my train of thoughts below:

Age 1-5: Diapers, common baby stuff, cute pink baby clothes, cool pram, etc.
Age 6-11: Barbie dolls, big dollhouse you can go inside, cookery toys (masak2 toys for BM), etc.
Age 12-14: Mobile phones, Avon beauty products and make-up, etc.
Age 15- 17: Body glove/ Converse sneakers, Body shop perfume and make-ups, etc.
Age 18-20: Handbags, Stilettos from Vinci, Clothes from Giordano, Seed, British India, etc.
Age 21- 24: Jimmy Choo's, Clothes from High end shops, Handbags from Coach, etc.
Age 24- 30: Expensive cars (Mercedes, Porsche, BMW, etc.), Nice expensive bungalows, apartments, or penthouse in a nice location, etc. Perhaps an expensive wedding as well.
Age 30-35: Expensive work handbags, Christian Louboutin's shoes, another expensive car, various expensive furniture, etc.
Age 35-45: Botox for the sagging face, slimming centre for the sagging body, vacations to expensive place around the world, extension for the expensive house etc.

Now, i could go on and on about how expensive women gets with age. But.. you get the idea. If you're still single, you carry all the burden of expenditure to yourself (or your awesome parents will lend their credit cards). If you have a bf or gf perhaps they will spend some on you. But if you're married, good luck to the men. I think they will carry all, if not most of the expenditure. Now, this post might or might not be true, but it does apply to some women in general. Mostly its satirical. All i can say is that, Men, be prepared as you have been warned. Women can be a little bit expensive ;).

And for those of you men who plan to have more than one women in your life, read the above post first. Especially if plan to keep all of them beautiful and satisfied.

Vanity.

2009-11-10T11:44:00.008+11:00

For some of you who do read my blog, you might wonder; Why the hell do i put my own name as the blog title? Right? Right? LOL. Well, if you don't wonder then, you might wonder now as I already brought up the question. Haha. Well here how the story goes:

One fine day, i just decide to start up a blog. I was bored. Nuff said. So i know blogspot is the simplest form to blog in for a rookie like me. So while i was constructing my blog, you have to fill in the URL for your blog. Being the genius i am, somehow i fill in the URL into the blog's title space. So you see, my blog's URL is suppose to be sabrina.mahmood.blogspot.com. But instead it came out as the blog title. Something along that line. Bla bla bla. I won't bore you with the details =).

So after a while i notice that my blog title is suppose to be my URL. Then i was like, "yeah.. let it be laa". I was just not creative enough to come out with a new blog's name (lazy as well). On top of that I do not know what i want to write in my blog. So i guess my own name as the blog's title would be fitting as for now =).

And no, i do not name my blog with my own name out of vanity =). LOL.

Current readings.

2009-11-09T02:24:00.016+11:00

I used to loved reading, i loved it so much that it is my most favorite thing to do in the world back then. But i can't say the same thing about it now. Now my most favorite things to do includes; watching TV series, hanging out with friends, shopping, playing around with social networking sites on the internet, etc. etc. Now i feel so lazy to read most of the time, but once i start i can't stop. Though it is quite a challenge to start, because i rather go watch "How I met Your Mother". Haha. But currently i am reading a few things (yeah, all at once coz i keep on buying books without finishing the last one).

i) The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho.
- For me it is an interesting book that talks about a magical tale that i feel have a deeper meaning to it. I bought this book in Korea so that i could read it in the flight.

ii) Artemis Fowl and the Time Paradox by Eoin Colfer.
- One of my most favorite series of all time. You should try to read it. I bought this at Sydney city while on a date with one of my babes.

iii) The Diary of Anne Frank By Anne Frank.
- One of the most famous if not the most famous diary of all time. I've heard about it all the time but i never properly read it. So when i was in Amsterdam visiting Anne's Frank's house i bought this book from the shop inside. So getting the book from Anne Frank's house itself might motivate me to read it faster.

iv) The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown.
- One of my most favorite book series of all time. Simply awesome. I bought it before going to New Zealand at my local bookstore.

I'll tell you when i finished reading all of it. Maybe when there is a total world blackout with no electricity and internet, and my laptop runs out of battery.

Rock bottom.

2009-11-08T12:18:00.004+11:00

The good thing about being at rock bottom is that you can't possibly go lower that that. Because you are already at the lowest of the lowest. Another good thing is that while you are at rock bottom usually you have nothing else to lose. So i say take this opportunity to dive into anything you have always wanted to do, or dreamed of doing. Coz really, what do you have to lose? You only have something to gain. Then perhaps while you are floating back up to the surface, you have already transformed into someone you have always dreamed of being.

What interest my soul.

2009-11-07T04:04:00.014+11:00

There are currently a few things i find interesting. It is renewed interest or perhaps new-found ones. So here goes my wall of fame for what interest me:

i) Traveling: Ah, everybody likes traveling. I simply love traveling especially since i came to Australia 2 years ago. Someone once said " He who has not traveled has only read one page of a book." Or something like that =). So far i have been to all continents in this world except South America. And i wish to do so in the future =). A few months ago I went traveling across Europe. I have been to Europe a few times before, but it was with my parents. But this time i went alone. I indeed learned a lot of things; maybe because i went alone. LOL. However i did meet up with a lot of great friends over there, as well as making new ones =). I am looking forward to travel again in the future, and perhaps i don't mind doing it alone =).

ii) Fashion: Owh my skinny jeans ! LOL. Since i came to Australia i have more free time, and somewhere along the way i fell in love with fashion. But i prefer looking compared to taking the effort to put on accessories, or putting on clothes that takes time (skinny jeans). My bad ;).

iii) Photography: My earliest memory of me expressing interest in photography was when i was 14 years old. I was in London that time with my parents, and i was crazy about taking pictures of panorama, perspectives, awesome backgrounds, etc. Though i can't take too much of it as back then we were still using a camera with film. Yes, no compact cameras that time. And now, that interest is coming back again.

iv) Music: Now i hang out with a few music orientated friends. So it rubs off you see. I used to be one of this pop girl. You know, the one that "i-don't-care-if-Britney-is-lip syncing-i'm-still-going". Britneyyyy!!!!! And i am still one. Hee =). But now i dig rockability a bit, along with other stuff =).

No turning back.

2009-11-06T12:53:00.005+11:00

Once you decide to get into a relationship, there is really no turning back. There is no way to un-love, un-think and un-care about a person. Well, probably there is a way to do that. But it will be really hard and it will change something inside of you (depending on how much you love that person though). But there is something you almost definitely can't change; the mark the person had left upon you. Yes, you can forget, hate, kill, or let go of that person, but the mark will always be there. What mark you might ask? Its the mark on your soul. Two souls that got together, when split apart, would definitely leave a mark upon each other. In simpler words, being with that person has affected you in some way. You can't change that, the mark. Relationship is not a two way road, there is just no turning back.

People talk, and you can't please all of em.

2009-11-05T14:34:00.008+11:00

I do not need to tell you the well known fact that people talk. People talk about you, people talk about other people, you talk about other people. The talk could be on good stuff or bad stuff. Now, when you were little you will try to please everyone. And as grow towards being an adult, you would still try to please everyone along the way. But for most people, the higher their age climbs, the less they try to please other people. Though there are some people who still try to please everyone as they get older, though it is not their fault. This is because it is the natural human survival instinct to try to please everyone. This is because when you please people, they will most likely like you, and in simple terms they would most probably not screw you up, hence you won't be injured both physically and emotionally. But for people who had faced some hardships when growing up, you would notice that they don't really care about pleasing others. This is because the hardship have make them stronger and most of them have learned not to care, that people will change their minds like they change their clothes. Today they like you, tomorrow they won't. But that doesn't mean you can go on in life with no care at all about what others think of you. As long as your close friends, family and partner thinks you're fine, then you're fine. We just have to face the fact that not everyone will like us. And some people will definitely talk about us. Now the only way you can live life with less worries is by accepting that some people will like you, some people just won't. You just can't please everyone.

Piano player.

2009-11-04T06:37:00.004+11:00

I used to be a piano player. I have been playing the piano since i was 7 years old. I said "used to" because i am no longer one anymore. This is due to the fact that i cannot fit a piano into my dormitory room, nor my college room. So since there is no piano, there is no practice. Though i can still play the piano, my competence should be about similar to an 8 years old. I wasn't a Beethoven with the piano before, but now i can just throw all my ABRSM certs down the drain. Perhaps the board might even revoke my certificates. Although I have to admit, perhaps i can't blame it all on the lack of piano, because the truth is I didn't put in enough effort to practice most of the time. But now since i am going back home to where there is a piano, I want to start playing again. I want the music to color my soul.

Grace Kelly.

2009-11-04T06:06:00.007+11:00

One of my favorite royals should be Grace Kelly, Princess of Monaco. Though that is not what i will be talking about today. Instead I will be talking about her wedding dress. Her wedding dress is my favorite so far, seconded to none. I would very much love to get married in this dress. As the dress is quite decent, i am quite sure my parents would approve. Though i couldn't say the same thing about the price tag. Made of lace, silk taffeta, and embroidered with seed pearls, i am quite sure it is a masterpiece of a wedding dress. Though if you want to wear your hair like Grace Kelly on your wedding day, you do have to make sure your face is quite symmetrical, along with not having any extra chin. Like i said, I would love to get married in this wedding dress.

There's something about Autumn.

2009-11-03T17:04:00.011+11:00

There's something about Autumn,
Perhaps it is the crisp golden leafs,
Perhaps it is the fiery splash of orange and red,
But there's just something about Autumn.

I wonder,
Perhaps Autumn is a depiction of life,
Depicting that beauty doesn't last forever,
Depicting that good things come to an end,
Expressing that everything will fade into nothingness.

But before winter capture Autumn,
Autumn will be fiery,
Autumn will be the golden jubilee of seasons,
Until it fade from golden to gray.

I wonder,
Perhaps that's the secret of Autumn's beauty,
Because it is mortal,
Because it is most fiery before gray,
Proposing perhaps beauty lies in mortality.

No offense.

2009-11-02T23:38:00.005+11:00

I use to know this person who i seldom, or never see take any offense. Considering i am fairly close to this person, this is quite a statement to be made. Now, considering this person use to be teased quite a fair bit by me and other friends, he should have the right to be offended. The stuff this person got teased about is usually about his physical outlook (though not in a mean way). But instead of taking offense, he will just reply with a lighthearted comeback which is usually wrap in humor. Now no matter how many times he is teased about the same thing, his method of replying will always be the same. I never saw him lose it, got angry, or basically take any offense.
I know most of us wish we have this trait in us.

Competition.

2009-10-28T22:10:00.007+11:00

If you look around enough, you would notice that quite a fair bit of life is about competition. By competition here i meant a race between one another, of who is better. For instance:

who is more good looking?
who has more money?
who has better looking boyfriend/ girlfriend?
who has more sense of style?
who is smarter?
who has more friends?

Now, the list could go on and on. But i won't bore you. Most people are in this race of who is better, whether they like it or not. Now, they are various kinds of examples i could give on how this race is being held. Some people would show-off, some people will put others down, some people are paranoid (thinking that other people are challenging them to prove who is better) and etc. Now one thing that everyone should realize is that, you can't win it all nor can you lose it all. So we should stop wasting our energy and soul on trying to win it all. Because at the finish line you will just win some and lose some.

I Wish I Am A Cat.

2009-10-27T13:14:00.004+11:00

I wish i am a cat,
But instead of nine life i want nine hearts,
So if one heart is broken,
I still have eight left.

I wish i am a cat,
But instead of nine life i want nine souls,
So if one soul is broken,
I still have eight left.

But unfortunately i am not a cat.

Cigarettes.

2009-10-23T03:39:00.010+11:00

I'm sure most of us out there have seen a ciggy box. Its either we saw it on some shelf in shops (usually behind glass covered doors and under a restricted age sign), or we smoke ourselves, or someone we know smoke. Now if we have seen a ciggy box we would have notice the warning sign encrypted on it, as well as the gruesome picture underneath it. An example of what I'm descripting is:

Warning:

Gruesome picture (Australia especially like to put this on their ciggy box):

The point is, how many people do you encounter in a day, that you see are smoking? Should be quite a lot. They are everywhere. Now this proves that people in general do know what is bad for them (being given a fair warning on a ciggy box) and do know what will happen to them if they do it (the gruesome picture). But well, most of us just don't care. Which led me to conclude that most people would focus on the here-and-now pleasures of life rather than on the consequences they will face in the future.

Owh yeah, this actuality doesn't only apply to cigarettes.

You just can't buy em.

2009-10-19T19:00:00.009+11:00

I was at work the other day. You see, my workplace have recently employed 30 new people. So there's a bunch of this new people around. Anyways, i work at a cinema. So I was just chattin up with this new guy called Andrew, just getting to know each other. So I asked him, do you work here full time or part time? Then he said i'm on training now, but i'm planning to work full time. Then he told me, i used to work at an office before this. But i stop cause i just don't like the pressure. So there i was thinking, why did he swap his office job to work as a general cinemas worker? Basically we general cinemas worker do whatever it takes to run a cinema= rip tickets, sell tickets, clean cinemas, sell food at candy bar, do dishes, etc., and we get paid about $10 or so. Owh yeah, i bet it is easier to work an office job rather than working as a general cinemas worker (high probability on getting more pay as well). Then i realize, you just can buy happiness. There might be other factors that affected Andrew's decision, but right now it makes Andrew happy to work as a general cinema worker. It just makes him Happy. There's no price tag on happiness . You just can't buy em.

Love.

2009-10-14T21:10:00.001+11:00

There is no one single song being written, stories being recorded, movies being made, poem being composed greater than that of the topic Love. You can find Love in just about anything. I think it is agreed upon by many that there are no greater feeling than Love. Now, if i want to talk about Love i think i would need a whole blog dedicated to it. Though i myself is still unsure about many things on Love, I do know that all the 6.79 billion people in this world have different views and opinions on Love. Now perhaps in an attempt to summarize the topic, lets take a look on what some people have said on the topic of Love:

The hottest love has the coldest end.
Socrates (469 BC-399 BC), Greek philosopher of Athens.

Love: A temporary insanity curable by marriage.
Ambrose Bierce (1842-1914), American newspaperman and short-story writer.

True love is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and few have seen.
Francois de La Rochefoucauld (1613-1680), French writer.

The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can never end.
Benjamin Disraeli (1804-1881), British politician and author.

Young love is a flame; very pretty, often very hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. The love of the older and disciplined heart is as coals, deep-burning, unquenchable.
Henry Ward Beecher (1813-1887), American politician.

It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.
Samuel Butler (1612-1680), British poet and satirist.

Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship, never.
Charles Caleb Colton (1780-1832), British clergyman, sportsman and author.

There is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be loved.
George Sand (1804-1876), French romantic writer.

6.79

2009-10-12T03:54:00.006+11:00

6.79 what?
6.79 billion.
Thats 6.79 billion humans currently living on planet earth.
Thats 6.79 billion souls,
6.79 billion opinions,
6.79 billion perspectives,
6.79 billion views,
6.79 billion differences.

Suprise, suprise, you are not earth's only inhabitants :). As you can see there are 6.79 (minus 1) other people here with you, on this planet. I know most of us are aware of this fact, but how come then we are so judgmental, so much in favor of prejudices and discrimination? My opinion is that we should respect other people's differences, be it any kind of differences. We should be aware that:

what we perceive as stupid, other people might perceive as smart,
what we perceive as un-productive, other people might perceive as "living life happily",
what we perceive as ugly, other people might perceive as exotic,
what we perceive as a big matter, other people might perceive as a small matter,
what we perceive as weird, other people might perceive as unique,
etc. etc. etc.

Your opinions and views, doesn't necessarily equals to other people's opinions and views as well. And that is precisely why we should respect and accept other people's differences. It is their basic human rights. We are not being put here on earth alone. We are being sent here along with others, so that we could learn and reflect on each other differences.

Scapegoat.

2009-10-04T16:12:00.007+11:00

I was in Berlin, Germany a while back when I learn a bunch of stuff about Hitler's Regime, Nazi, the Third Reich, etc. Now, I only knew a couple of fundamental facts about the Holocaust which is barely sufficient, but it has always interest me why Hitler hated Jews and killed about 6 million (17 million if other races were to be included) of them. I was told by a Berlin-er that the answer to my question is that there is no reason at all. The Jews were simply scapegoats. If i remembered correctly, Germany suffered a huge lost in World War 1. So when Hitler came to power he uses the Jews as the scapegoat, as to why they lost the war. Hmm, ok, At that time i couldn't really comprehend the answer, as i see there is a huge flaw in the logic. How can you blame something that has no connection whatsoever to someone else? So after a couple of months pondering on the issue, i finally get the meaning of the whole scapegoat thing. IN FACT, scapegoat-ing happens everyday around us. Simply said, if something went horribly wrong, isn't it easier to blame it entirely on someone/something else? Take this example for instance:

You and your partner has a project to submit as part of your uni course.
You and your partner didn't finish it in time.
So you and your partner decide to blame your housemate (who you think is friendly, and thats why you have long conversations with her, and that is the reason why you can't submit your project in time).
So the Housemate is the Scapegoat here.
As she is being blamed for the crime of you and your partner, which has no connection at all to her.
PS: Thats what you told your lecturer, and your housemate will probably get punished as well.

You see, scapegoat-ing is generally use as a way of distracting attention from the real causes. And of course, it doesn't necessarily makes sense. But, Humans has always found it to be easier to blame others rather than accepting the responsibilities and finding solution to their issues. It is just simply simpler.

Secrets.

2009-10-04T15:32:00.018+11:00

I have once read somewhere,

"Secrets are passed on from one bestfriend to another."(anonymous)

I could not help to think that the quote is anything but true :). Have you ever been in a situation where your bestfriend would say something like " hey i wanna tell you something which is suppose to be a secret, but don't tell anyone aite". Or you yourself being the one who utter that particular sentence :).

My opinion is that if you do not want the cat out of the bag, then do not let anyone in on your secret at all. No one. At all. If you do, then please consider that the cat is already out of the bag :).

Words.

2009-10-03T21:57:00.029+10:00

"Words are, of course, the most powerful drug used by mankind." - Rudyard Kipling (1865-1936, British author & poet)

Words, people could make you fall in love with them,
make you believe,
seduce you,
make you change your mind.. etc. etc.

And many other side effects.. Most of the time when the "word drug" wears off you would be left in a confused, heartbroken, speechless or perhaps in a dying state. Now, what are the antidotes against this type of drug? Perhaps finding out what type of this drug you are most susceptible to, then start the search for your immunity shot against that type of drug. Or perhaps close your ears against that type of drug.But then again, it is called a "drug" for a reason. You simply can't help yourself.

Relationship Status.

2009-10-03T12:47:00.007+10:00

According to Facebook, there are 7 types of relationship status:

1. single
2. in a relationship
3. engaged
4. married
5. its complicated
6. in an open relationship
7. widowed (most recently added by fb, i think it is quite funny, lol)

Of all the status-es, i comprehend all except no 5 (its complicated) and 6 (in an open relationship). OK maybe i do get its complicated. Maybe its complicated due to reasons such as; i am still deciding my sexual orientation or my bf just died.

But I could'nt say the same for no 6 (in an open relationship). Basically its a relationship that's asking for trouble. You can be in this type of relationship, but you should be prepared for an epic crash at the end. If you're prepared its fine. Because i feel that in an open relationship you both just don't love each other enough to commit. And in the end one party would always get hurt more than the other. You can try to take on this type of relationship with minimal damage by outlining the limitations, definitions and outcomes of you relationship very thoroughly. All the power to you and the very best of luck. I would advice for you to stick to no 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, and 7 though :).

An Oxymoron.

2009-10-03T11:27:00.004+10:00

I was in Vienna, Austria a couple of months back. In a theme park in Vienna to be exact. Its a Theme park, so u can expect roller coasters, ferris wheels, etc.
I was going around the park, but something made me stop in my tracks and indulge in some self reflection.
I saw a man in a wheelchair, in the middle of the mentioned theme park. Now, if you're in a wheelchair, what CAN you do in a theme park? Ride in roller coasters? Catch a view from the ferris wheel? Well, all that i could think of is that you can watch OTHER people catching the view from the ferris wheels or them riding on top of the roller coasters. You CAN'T.
I think its such an ironic, oxy-moronic capture.
Made me reflect on how thankful i should be for the life i am having.

Relationships.

2009-10-03T09:19:00.007+10:00

Haven't gone 3 days in our life without a boyfriend or girlfriend? Then maybe we should take some time off dating. Because being alone is not really the end of the world. Thats rite. Take that time off do better in our studies or job, follow our passion, deal with our inner issues and do the things we have always wanted to do. Become the perfect person we always wanted to be and enjoy the life we built for ourselves. During this time we would find the space we need to grow, and to find our true self. Did i mention we will also learn to stand up on our own two feet? Yes, then when we have finished polishing up ourselves, like magic a special person would come along to share that life with us. And it would be better than any relationship we had ever had :).

adapted from myself & facebook aps

Life Just Is.

2009-10-03T08:23:00.007+10:00

" Life is not a fairytale. It is more beautiful as it is meaningful just because of its imperfection. Yet it is not easy to say as such when you are facing such pain and hardships. But when life give you Lemon, make Lemonade. And make it the best Lemonade anyone has ever tasted. AND THEN you can say, In Your Face life :)."

Yours truly,
Sabrina

You. Twit. Face. (You Tube, Twitter, Facebook)

2009-10-03T07:38:00.005+10:00

Sabrina Mahmood has found another application to further extend her reasons to why she should procrastinate on her assignments :).
As if Facebook wasnt enough :)
Owh yeah, Hello Blogspot :)